Nov. 11 Going out Funky, Pink Marble

Update for Today.... no chemo, no steroids, yes!!!! I start again on the 13th, Sat. The worse part about this morning was how annoyed I was at the fact that I was annoyed and that I couldn't just be like " whatever..... i'm free" yada yada. Again, it's all about control. At least the team understood my frustration and I'm sure will make a point to let me know the details ASAP. Well.... I'm taking that in my own hands really.... I'm meeting with my nurse... getting out my calendar.... writing it down.... and then checking each day to see if it has changed in anyway. 
         My Dad came to visit me today. He works at Coca Cola. I think that is so cool.  I don't really drink much sodas much.... but I could use one of those 8 oz glass bottles right now. Aaaaahhh. We went on a walk to look at a different part of campus and saw some really pretty buildings. Some of them looked like pink marble... not sure if there is pink marble... I should know this, I was a science teacher you know. A damn good one. I just have problems with authority so obvious school isn't the place for my hippie side. My type A side liked the stucture but since I didn't have any control over anything... that didn't help either. Then I was married with 3 children and it wasn't fair to the girls to be around children all day and have nothing left for them.  So, my Dad and I had fun and then I passed out for like 2 hours. 
         Hair: I've decided that if it is going to fall out, it is going out funky baby. I have been working on growing my hair out and trying the long rocker shag and then was going to dye it red with crazy streaks in it. Like Haily Williams from Paramore.  I've had the college hair going on for a while and it works for me but I'd figure I would try it modified. So, my step daughters, decided that it should be purple. I'm going to get it cut, dye it purple, and then laugh when it falls out. A girl I grew up with, Whitney, is going to volunteer her services here are the hospital for me. Isn't that so cool??? I really didn't want to go to the clinic salon and have to smell everything... with a mask on. Could you imagine getting your hair done with a mask on???? No way... I'm getting room service. 
         My nurse, Sukena, has been such as blessing today. We talked about the mental health field, her going back to school, and us surrendering to the Lord in the Spirt. Still planning on playing the guitar today. The director wants me to play for other people at some point. Sounds awesome.... but with a mask on.... not so awesome. I can't imagine singing with a mask on. You all know I sing LOUD.... I need air!!! I think I may coordinate a dance party in my room at some point. Well only 3 people could dance at once but we all get tired easy anyway. Dancing with a mask on.... hmmmmm.  I like my moms idea about wearing a crazy hat or a clown wig when I walking around campus.... that would be so funny. And it would make people laugh.  I just had a thought.... I need some mouth size smiley face stickers or maybe I can use a pen to draw a smile on the mask.... by God... I have something here.... imagine..... cancer patients being a to purchase masks with the designs all ready on them.... silly faces.... different colors.... words..... holy cow!