Hello everyone,
We have been so busy with work, Evalyn, finishing touches on the party, I have not had a chance to update you, or just write down for memories how I’m feeling. I had another medication change this week so that all always throws me off. I don’t know if the heat has made it worse, or what but my feet are as swollen as they were last summer when I was pregnant. Really, will I ever get to wear the 25 pairs of cute shoes I have again? How is it that I look and feel pregnant two summers in a row? Geez. I’m going to have to go get some support socks to sleep in today to help the swelling go down at night. I’ll die if they ask me “When are you due?” I’ll just die, right there, and may bite the person that tries to give me CPR…. Just let me go in peace.
The cramping started again with the lowering of the steroids and you would think I would be sleeping better but maybe I just don’t sleep. I could make a killing if I could figure out what to do in the middle of the night to bring in income from home. Well that sounds kinda bad , I take that back. I had some headaches, stomach aches, and just whole body aches. I’m sick of taking 13 pills in the morning and more at night, weighing 25 lbs more than I should, and I’m tired of telling people about it. But what if I become one of those people who just lie and say “I’m fine”, “I’m great”. Nah… sometimes I just say,” I’m ok right now but it depends when you ask…. 3 hrs ago I was laying in the bed with cramps that were making cry, 5 hours ago, I was playing the guitar and taking care of my Evalyn Rose.” People sometimes what to hear “fine” so I enjoy seeing their faces. Oh yea, I’m sick of being hungry. Eating is like a chore when your on this medication because you can think of anything else when you feel that your stomach in caving in.
It’s 5:30 am and I think I got up at 4 am, I better go lay back down, I don’t think tomorrow is going to be more restful. The good thing is, mentally and emotionally, I’m feeling pretty good. I try not to stress too much, day “I don’t know” or “I don’t remember”, continue to choose when to talk on the phone, lay down when I can, and just do the best I can everyday. I’m seeking the Lord’s guidance and that all I can ask of myself. Is my bathroom dirty and floors need to be vacuumed? Yep. Oh well.
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