Daily Devotional 3/5

           I'm in the art of tricking myself to do things. I'm up! I'm having trouble fitting in my daily eye routine so I decided to do one of them in the morning. That made me set still long enough to at least pray for a few minutes even though my mind wonders so much, it was probably like a minute. Another way I trick myself if making sure I have sitters for my free exercise classes, then I don't have an excuse not to go... or sometimes I'll give up totally and can't drive or something and just go down to my Grandparents house and eat their food and drink their coffee. I try to make up for it with my witty comedy, sad leftovers, and waiting on them when their stubborn selves will let me, and buying stuff they need and being sneaky not to let them pay me back. I'm stubborn too, don't really like to ask for help. Off on a tangent again.

            So this morning, I read from one of my devotionals called Come Away My Beloved by Frances J. Roberts. I've mentioned this before, it is written just like the Creator of the universe is talking right to you. One of the qoutes said, " You cannot ignore my voice without experiencing pain, you cannot turn a deaf ear to my words without getting in the enemies snare".  Reminds me of when Evalyn fell off the porch. Ouch. Or last night, when she got into trouble and her Dad experienced "this hurts me more than it hurts you", for the first time. God really doesn't ask much of us. It also said that" We have not cried to him with all our hearts, but complain that God doesn't hear our prayers." I know that is the truth for me.... why now Lord, why this, why me, when, when, Are we there yet..... If a bird was flying at the same speed as us what time would they arrive, which is something my daughter Corynne asked when she was little trying not to get in trouble with her Dad in the car. 

Check out Hebrews 11:6- those that diligently seek him. and Jeremiah 29:13- with all your heart.

We try to seek so much with all out heart- money, family, status and diligently work to make sure that dinner is on the table, that we look good enough, that we find a job that gives us fulfillment. I have to continue to remind myself to seek first the kingdom of God and all these things will be added to me. For me, it's little sins that I know I need out of my life that can block the lines of communication.... well why would he give me something big to do if I can't even put my necklace away (another Evalyn reference). I'm not a baby in Christ anymore, or a tot, but I've still got a lot of seeking to do with ALL my heart.