If I leave out an important part of the story that you can tell, feel free to ask me. See just right then, I started zoning out. They had to really increase my pain medication last night due to the muscle and bone pain, along with my neck swelling up. I looked like a swimmer, being bald and having a huge neck. I think that's what strong swimmers look like. I have a pretty high pain tolerance and a high tolerance to medications. We tried stronger pills but the pain was so bad that I was still crying and shaking, so we started some IV pain meds. These helped the pain immediately, but also made me feel like a zombie, and the Zofran was already doing that. Now, this what happens, you have a side effect, that has a side effect, etc
Cancer=Radiation= bone/muscle pain/ swollen glands= pain medication= lack of concentration/
itching skin= anti itch medication = freak out and think your going to die.
It was 2 am in the morning and I had not slept at all do the the pain and itching. They gave me some benadryl, nothing new to me and that's when it happened. She was giving me the benadryl when all of a sudden I sat straight up, my throat felt like it was closing in on me, and I COULD NOT BREATH. I'm not kidding. The look on the nurses face was she was just as freaked out. She was asking what was wrong but I couldn't answer. I made the "choking sign" because I didn't know what else to do. Finally, I managed to push out "Get Help." At that point, I was able start taking very small painful breaths that sounded like some sort of animal . I was really thinking that someone was going to have to cut my neck so that I could breath. Then, slowly, I started breathing better and better. That was of course not before the adrenaline kicked in since I thought I may die. Um, I think I decided suffocation or drowning is not the way I want to go . I've had 2 more rounds of radiation today, a Cat Scan, a ton of medication and have barely been able to stop going and waiting, going and waiting. We got the results of one of the test and it looks like I do have the common cold. I'm getting some bags of "stuff", one of the me is IV Immune Globulin.The highlight of the day was that my Mom brought Evalyn by for about and hour. She was so happy to see me and looked cute in the pink and white apple outfit that Grandma Kim bought her. She is already wearing some 12 month ! We put out a big blanket on the hospital lobby floor and played for a little while. Sounds gross, but it's a beautiful lobby, like a house, and the blanket will be washed asap. She knew it was her mommy behind the mask and just smiled at me. Puppy Dog is her first "sign." that she has learned, but I think the first spoken word will be DA DA. He deserves it :).
Uhhhhhhhhhhh... they just came in here saying I need an EKG cause my heart rate is too high. Sometimes I cuss in my head and don't it out loud, I need to work on that.
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